It was a normal day.. finally it ended to be a very terrible one. I don’t need any reminders to remember what effect this day this year has caused in my life. One great mind, closest to my heart passed away, and I couldn’t do anything, except treasure the memories.

Death makes us feel how little and helpless we are. We are nothing but just idle watchers. This really makes me pathetic when the closest people move away and its really hard to face the absence as reality and proceed with the life as if nothing has happened. If you are grief stricken people call you sentimental.. if that goes more than the expected time we are named mental.. so hardly I talk about what makes me feel sad, as people really don’t care the impact its having on me. Everyone want me to be practical or watever you name it to forget dead people.. So I stopped talking about it to people who ask me to forget.

No one can understand, no one can even come close to understanding. It is not the same grief to everyone and it holds the same to joy.

Hope not to talk about the people to other people.. which is the cause of everything.. better to keep it within the mind.. which is like un failing gmail having all the conversations in order with lot of memory

People always feel happy to talk whatever they want .. hardly few think about the implications that it causes in other person’s emotional outcome. Age, sex, money.. nothing matters.. I see people with foul mouths daily.. and even though I try to think that its only my perception .. and  try to put myself to their shoes.. I still see that I wont talk that way if I am in any such situation..

Finally I come to see really ill faced smart people.. who are looked up as big guys/gals.. some people ofcourse like them.. dono whether their behavior is bad only to me… or they are trying to teach me a lesson.. God Knows.. Me dono.

And it really hurts when people talk bad about the people you love and they tell you its just for fun. It doesn’t hurt only at the time they talk.. it hurts whenever I think about them. Its weird that I have to face such people so often in my good and bad times. It doesn’t take a split second to contaminate my mind and mouth like theirs to teach them a lesson, still feel that I couldn’t do it. I feel better I didn’t do the same way, I feel really good thinking Am far better than the filthy mind such people have. Hope I stay the same way. Gud that I am occupied with work, rather than dealing with such people. Kind of blessing in disguise stuff..

I met this shutdown guy, who is kool and funny, and intelligent, yet faces failures throughout his life and most of it is circumstantial, I just couldn’t resist, but to ask him

“Hey, how can u ever move on with such things happening?”

he was al in his smiles and told me

“I always wanted to end my life, but whenever I tried to put it into action, I got motivated to live by simple things like kid walking past me smiling, or the older guy giving me swami prasad or my frends making my day more beautiful.. I just think one sec that is dying worth sacrificing all these beautiful things? and my answer was always a No”

I just couldnt react, was looking wierd at him..

he continued.. “I know why you are asking this, you desperately want to see me successful, but you couldn’t do anything about it, but you still want to be for me, and make me understand that, and I know that long before .. and I don’t want to dissapoint friends like you”

Ya, shutdown guy, he always reboots ..

At times we too need to reboot, and get things back to normal. Rebooting kills unwanted processes that we have started long back and has only default stuff goin on, sameway we might also want to end up unwanted stuff like our ego, complex etc which would be taking too much of our memory, becas all these weren’t our default functionality, and we are better off without them

My team mate gave me this link to register in do not call registry of Airtel, so that I don get junk calls. I was so happy and did the registration stuff. After clicking the submit button I get the following message. Huh 45 Days! I think they used numerology in this case

“Your reference number for Registering on NDNC is —–. All promotional communication to your Airtel mobile should stop within 45 days from now. “

I thought how funny it will be if other companies give such responses, like hospitals, call taxis.. ha ha ha.. life is rather wierd

Pallavi: “Tandanana” is a word giving the punch of rhythm in the song. Ahi, Pure, Bhala are the words expressing the excitement or ecstasy or appreciation. The absolute spirit is one & only one.

Charanam 1: There are no differences of low & high. “Srihari” (A name of Vishnu. Vishnu is the form of God who is in charge of maintenance, protection of the good & destruction of the bad. In this context, Srihari is the Supreme Spirit) is the indwelling Spirit to one and all. All the beings in creation are one because the indwelling spirit in every creature is one and the same.

Charanam 2: Sleep is same to all, be it a king or a servant. Be it a “Brahmin” (man of the highest caste) or “Chandala” (man of the lowest caste), the earth they live on is the one and the same.

Charanam 3: Be it an elephant or a dog, the sun shines alike on both of them. For the good and the bad, Lord Venkateshwara alone is “The Savior”.

Whoever the God is, above stuff hold gud if we do a ctrl+find+replace the God name in the above lyrics, and tats awsome

There are few people I see daily who talk a lot.. and lot means really lot and it just irritates me like a mosquito singing thru my ear drums!

I still don’t understand why we need to talk for 1 hr to understand something rather than figuring the things which hardly takes 5 mins. I am always for talking to ask for routes, when we get lost.. but talking to establish a point, talking to bluff people,.. talking just because we can talk.. and talking just because someone listens to you.. it isn’t a great idea atleast in a professional life and it pisses off people like me who really love some silence in work place.

He1: Hey how did u? where did u do? why did u do? and can u do this for me? and helo i like ur pen too.. and ofcourse hows this movie?

She1: Its done.

I am always She1 and I hate making conversations for which we already have the results in table. So it also means that I don’t talk to my managers after they decide my pay check.

Then comes the mouthpiece guys.. who troll around opice just because they are doing the daily chores of their manager. So here comes He1 again.

He1: hey, he2 asked you about the work he2 to gave to she2. Can you talk to him?

[after a min]

He1: hey, he2 wants to.. blah blah blah…

[after 30 min]

He1: hey, he2 actually…

She1: Hey can you let me work, so that I can do what he told me rather listening what he told you? @#@#

But He1 never stops, looks like he gets the name gajini, better than Aamir khan himself :-X

People like him remind me of how sick work place can become! huh!

Today is the last day of this calendar yr.. Though tere is lot hype created around this new yr stuff.. I exactly dono the impact it has in everyone’s life except for the change in the yr in their calendars.. and ofcourse ppl get older But calendars are gud actually.. they come in different colors, sizes, shapes and ofcourse with astrology predictions.. and wat not… even explanation abt tat particular day.. hmm.. when I jus sit around here lazing and thinking about the new yr and great/bad stuff happened in the last yr.. thats quiet a lot.. to say..

-> I wanted to quit my job and since I didn’t get any job I changed my team, the least tat can be done! (I also want my manager to quit, but I don think he gives a try to that thought! )

-> I learned a lot abt *people* as we do always in all part of our life, in a harder way

-> I donated a lot of money this year without anyone’s knowledge than I ever thought..

-> I got my first credit card this yr.. finally one bank trusted me, while many rejected my application

-> I changed my mobile since I lost mine 3 yr old one in my friend’s wedding and this new one costed 6k, which many of my colleagues think its old fashioned.

-> I stopped visiting deals2buy.com/ebay.com for time pass, which always ended up asking ppl at home for some junk digital stuff, which ofcourse costs a fortune according to them.

-> hey, Chandrayaan was launched on my birthday

-> I stopped working for 15 hrs a day and started sleeping 15 hrs a day

-> I understood how wrigley’s double mint becomes sticky when I keep it under my shelf for 6 months

-> I figured out I won’t die if there is no internet!

-> My room is air-conditioned finally!

-> I concluded that I wont be able to read any book completely – after wasting lot of money in buying and stacking them

-> I understood at some point that money isn’t making me happy anymore!

This list goes on and I think there are yet more *understood* *figure-out* *concluded* *learned* needs to happen this yr too.. life need to move on whatever it is and I think it does teaches everyone its lesson dues at the proper instant! Only way is to have our senses open to Learn!

Its often rare to see me watching a movie in theater and alone, never happened..!

But I like one thing with theaters, that too movie which are less crowded, with countable heads.. and I often end up doing everything else than watching the movie, -> eating, sleeping, thinking, watching others, checking my mobile, and its junk settings, and ofcourse trailors of new movies which are yet to be released… and I like this thing, going out of the theater after everyone else has gone, it kind of gives satisfaction for watching the movie to fullest, though I might not have even watched *important* turning points and punch dialogues, But I like to watch the titles scrolling, it means a great experience unless we are a part of it. Every artist likes to see his/her name in his work. Titles means more than the movie itself for them and for me it means watching the movie *completely* …!

I was reminded by arch that i missed this bday post sometime last week..
so thought i would do it now..

This time wanted to check wat all happened except for a funny event of my birth 2 decades ago..
List of events is updated in wiki as we know.. it didn’t have my birth as an event though..

Lets come to the interesting part of it.. people born on the same day..

Many ppl in the list were artists (poets, actress, and ppl of that kind..) rest were studious academicians.. and few emperors..
One person who might interest my frends* might be shaggy

This yr to my surprise we had a mini cake cutting stuff n opice. The cake wasnt great but i liked the look and feel though! Last yr i went to office after a 2 week broken (!!?) vacation and barely anyone remembered my birthday there, and I was happy abt it though as getting attention frm ppl is not my area of expertise! though few in my team are born for that purpose ..

On birthdays of so called great ppl prisoners were released.. so I thought I too can release someone, i took some ants and put them out of my house

So the list finally:

Wishes:

In Person: 14
Phone: 9 ( 1 missed call? )
Orkut: 25+
email: 5+ ( dono !)

We come on the sloop john b
My grandfather and me
Around nassau town we did roam
Drinking all night
Got into a fight
Well I feel so broke up
I want to go home

So hoist up the john bs sail
See how the mainsail sets
Call for the captain ashore
Let me go home, let me go home
I wanna go home, yeah yeah
Well I feel so broke up
I wanna go home

The first mate he got drunk
And broke in the capns trunk
The constable had to come and take him away
Sheriff john stone
Why dont you leave me alone, yeah yeah
Well I feel so broke up I wanna go home

So hoist up the john bs sail
See how the mainsail sets
Call for the captain ashore
Let me go home, let me go home
I wanna go home, let me go home
Why dont you let me go home

(hoist up the john bs sail)

Hoist up the john b
I feel so broke up I wanna go home
Let me go home

The poor cook he caught the fits
And threw away all my grits
And then he took and he ate up all of my corn
Let me go home
Why dont they let me go home
This is the worst trip Ive ever been on
So hoist up the john bs sail
See how the mainsail sets
Call for the captain ashore
Let me go home, let me go home
I wanna go home, let me go home
Why dont you let me go home